I was just blown away today. I can't even begin to tell you how good God is. He is just so amazingly wonderful. What better reminder than perfect weather. The weather really makes you stop and thank God for everything He has created. Just starting off first thing this morning being so greatful to God really made a difference. I was just so joyful all day long. I couldnt stop smiling. Days like that just dont happen near as often as they should you know. We are so caught up in our own selves and we just forget that it is by the grace of God that we are here. We become stressed and worried and selfish and dont stop and remember the REASON or the PERSON who is in control! We lose so much joy cause we conform to this world! My Mom forwarded this email to me and I wanted to share it with yall! It is very convicting!Take care and GOD BLESS!!!

As you got up this morning, I watched you, and hoped you would talk to me, even if it was just a few words, asking my opinion or thanking me for something good that happened in your life yesterday. But I noticed you were too busy, trying to find the right outfit to wear.When you ran around the house getting ready, I knew there would be a few minutes for you to stop and say hello, but you were to busy. At one point you had to wait fifteen minutes with nothing to do except sit in a chair. Then I saw you spring to your feet. I thought you wanted to talk to me but you ran to the phone and called a friend to get the latest gossip instead. I watched patiently all day long. With all our activities I guess you were too busy to say anything to me! I noticed that before lunch you looked around, maybe you felt embarrassed to talk to me, that is why you didn't bow your head. You glanced three or four tables over and you noticed some of your friends talking to me briefly before they ate, but you didn't. That's okay. There i s still more time left, and I hope that you will talk to me yet.You went home and it seems as if you had lots of things to do. After a few of them were done, you turned on theTV. I don't know if you like TV or not, just about anything goes there and you spend a lot of time each day in front of it not thinking about anything, just enjoying the show. I waited patiently again as you watched the TV and ate your meal, but again you didn't talk to me. Bedtime I guess you felt too tired. After you said goodnight to your family you plopped into bed and fell asleep in no time. That's okay because you may not realize that I am always there for you. I've got patience, more than you will ever know.... I even want to teach you how to be patient with others as well. I love you so much that I wait everyday for a nod, prayer or thought, or a thankful part of your heart. It is hard to have a one-sided conversation. Well, you are getting up once again. Once again I will wait, with nothing but love for you. Hoping that today you will give me some time. Have a nice day! Your friend,GOD

Wow! Its been a while. Hmm I guess I just got to busy to take the time and sit and write. Although to my defense I did sit and write one on Friday but accidently erased it while editing. Anyways, its that time of the semester we all love. Suckin it up to make it thru the last week so we can take our finals. The closing of this semester is bittersweet for several reasons. I just cant believe how fast it goes. Lots of things coming to an end. We are actually grown ups. Scary huh? Well I am very thankful for my job at Transportation Services. God really blessed me with some amazing, godly women as my coworkers. It is such an encouragment to work with them. We are all so different but are constantly pushing each other to be better whether it be thru talking or just watching how they handle themselves. God is just totally at work in their hearts and it pushes me to want to be better too! I have really come to term with the fact that I have lots of friends. But I dont really have a whole lot of people who inspire me because of God in their lives. I am slowly starting to connect with other believers in my church. Its very humbling to be around these AMAZING people. They arent shy about their faith, they arent too proud to tell you they struggle, and they are just SO loving! They definatly convict me when I try to pretend I have it all under control. Hmm. Funny I never really knew how much I needed, wanted, desired to have control. Im coping with the fact that I am not supposed to! Im finally learning to pry my fingers off my life, my sin, the people who I think I can save! Its getting easier to trust God. Dont get me wrong I still STRUGGLE with it, but it gets easier the more and more I do it. I have been keeping a bitterness log and writing all the times I get angry or bitter. WOW. Sometimes you dont even realize that it is second nature till you start keeping up with it. It has been a good experience. I am makin myslef go back a few days after each entry and write why I acted the way I did. Hopefully soon I will see a decline in the number of entries. For now I am tryin to take captive EVERY thought. I am just trusting God that He will free me from this nasty, ugly sin in my life. I know He has big plans for me and I cant possibly carry out Gods will if I am too busy being mad and bitter about the past or what other people did or didnt do for me. Its so stupid. But I know God will work it all out for HIS glory. So thats about it! Hope everyone has a great week and gets plenty of rest for FINALS!

Selfless Love

So do you ever catch yourself acting in a way that makes you sick to your stomach? Its so easy to spot the sins in other peoples lives, but when we see it in our own heart it makes us sick! This is exactly how I felt when I realized that I was storing up this anger and bitterness from someone hurting my feelings, only to see that I had carried these feelings over to my other relationships. I have let myself become scared to love, scared to care becuase I dont want to get my feelings hurt again. Well NEWSFLASH everyone is not gonna always please me, people are gonna hurt my feelings, people will let me down, but God won't! Maybe God knows that I had put that relationship above Him. Someone once told me that God knows the person (people) we most desire approval from and purposly withholds it from us, so that we will lean on HIM! And what good does being scared do? Who does it help? 1 John 4:18 says "There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love". Yet how often do I LIVE in fear? This fear of rejection, fear of not being loved by this world. It just makes me sick! Why have I wasted 23 years of my life living in this pit. Thinking I have to have apporaval and acceptance from anyone other than my God. God has called us to agape love. We are to give and keep giving EVEN when we receive NOTHING in return. We are to love in ATTITUDE and ACTION! I have got to stop loving based on feelings! Feelings = flesh! I have to learn to be completely selfless with my love. I dont deserve ANYTHING! I know that if I can learn to biblically love (not worldly love) my brothers and sisters in Christ then I will be set free from this bitterness that I have been dealing with. God can set me free!
"Generally speaking, to have the happiness, joy, and fullfillment you desire, you must put yourself aside and place God and others first. In regards to your relationship with God, set your heart on glorifying God whether you get your way or not". Martha Peace